jerks.

"Jerky guys seem to have some kind of sixth sense. They know how to disappear & re-appear at just the right time. They know when a girl is just about to give up on them, so they send an email or a text. They know how to be vague, give false hope, and keep a girl`s interest perfectly."

oh how true this quote is &, unfortunately, it repeatedly happens to me. i can`t seem to get rid of him out of my life nor can i date someone else & move on because i`m not the type of girl guys tend to date & i accept that. even if a guy takes a chance on me, i doubt i`ll give him the chance to like me due to previous experiences. i`m not down to be played, get heartbroken, & be even more distrustful of others i like more than friends. i`m not gonna be a bitch about it. i`ll tell him upfront that he`s probably gonna be wasting his time & if he so happens to get me to like him, i doubt that he`ll stick around long enough for me to tell him because he`ll figure out that he`s wasting his time on me. it sucks but it happens. ALOT.

anyways, i started this blog just to clear my head & to remember the good times that`s going to be had. oh & random ramblings may happen during those sleepless nights. you`ve been warned.

the laker game is about to start & so my first blog is gonna end. more to come soon.